You drained me of my identity and injected self doubt into my veins Left me questioning my own sanity Walking around aimlessly At war with my own body every day Trying to scrub your heavy words off my skin My mental state has been shaken to its core I don’t know who I am anymore e.s. Advertisements Continue reading Drained / e.s.
It is strange how much time can change things. I find it hard to recognise myself six months ago. When I believed I was strong, but I had lost every sense of who I was. I’ve spent the last 182 days coming home to myself. I’m not who I was before I met him, and I am most definitely not who I was when I … Continue reading Strange / Victoria Howell
I would like you to write down 5 qualities you possess but they have to be qualities you aren’t comfortable admitting. You may be proud of these qualities, or you may hate them. You may still be in denial. It doesn’t matter. These qualities make up who you are right now. You may want to change them, or you may want to embrace them. Accepting who … Continue reading Five Qualities
I tried to change, closed my mouth more. Tried to be soft, prettier. Less awake. Fasted for sixty days. Wore white Abstained from mirrors. Abstained from sex. Slowly did not speak another word. In that time my hair grew past my ankles. I slept on a matt on the floor. I swallowed a sword. I levitated into the basement, confessed my sins and was baptised in … Continue reading Denial / Beyonce
infidelity; the devil in disguise of the person you idolise. don’t change your soul to obey the sins of those who don’t love you. VH Continue reading Infidelity / Victoria Howell
What a waste to spend your life trying to be someone else. What a waste to never embrace your organic self. How sad to never fully appreciate the astounding individual that you are. How sad to spend your time chasing the dreams of someone else. How useless to repeat the path of those around to become a copy a shadow. To bring the same outcome … Continue reading Waste / Victoria Howell
maybe it was my up bringing or maybe it’s inherited but my unknowing weighs me down pulling me away from any path i consider i want to shut it off these thoughts that stop me in my track just let me take the risk i’ll carry on the consequences on my back Continue reading Decisions / Victoria Howell